marquis

2011-12-08T23:01:00.000-08:00

I don't want you to look at me, I'm shedding skin.
I can't afford for you to see what's in.
I'd rather shoot myself than have you watch me.
I feel you'd steal my skin to try and wear me.

I was betrayed, one more day, of my short life.
You were carried away, had no shame, to suffocate my being.

I was me, but you weren't you.
You were sticking to me like a scab.
So, I peeled you away...
Bled for days...
And stepped out of myself.

I'm shedding skin...
Changing within...
Falling in.

Through swollen eyes...
Dreamed you died...
Caught inside.

I'm shedding skin...
Spreading thin...
Severed stem.

Created the end...
Killing a friend...
I'm shedding my skin.

I don't think you belong in here, I feel I'm sick.
Don't ask, cause, you know damn well where, where I've been.
I've kept a simple woman through the thick and thin.
But I found the guts to sever from my siamese twin.

I throw you away...
Everyday.
A dead part of life.
Strangling back...
Seething black.
In between my longing for torture.

Blood on my face that came from your face.
A mix of kissing and bleeding.
I put you away...
I shut you away...
I pissed you away....
I threw you away.

I'm shedding skin...
Changing within...
Falling in.

Through swollen eyes...
Dreamed you died...
Caught inside.

I'm shedding skin...
Spreading thin...
Severed stem.

I created the end...
Killing a friend...
I'm shedding my skin.

You fucking and sucking.
You friendless.
It's endless.
Your flower has soured.
It's endless.
You're friendless.

It's harder...
And stronger.
But no one's been inside you longer...
And harder...
And deeper...
To get you off you need the fear.
The fear.
The fear.
The fear.
Fear...

It's never love...
Bloody touch.
Broken wrist.
Needle rust.
Choking throat.
Swallowed teeth.
Head fuck.
No peace.

I'm shedding my skin to peel you off of me...
You've got to love me.

Ornament.
Shrunken head.
Playtoy.
Snake strike...
Poisonous.
Syphillis...
Drenched me.
Soaked me.

I'm shedding my skin.

To drain you out of me,
You've got to hate me.

Pantera

2010-11-16T22:45:00.000-08:00

I ran with the dead
And chased my own shadow
Built walls, walls of belief
Reaction from the fall
We are ones of will
Desperate and dying
I was along for the ride
The ride of the unaligned
I gave you every word to hold
On a deathless night
Sucking, Bleeding, inside out
If I had gave in
I'd never live that down

And I wanted to believe in everything I'm after
But I was drowning in the hell that I raised
And when there's nothing left to say
You won't need a reason
To kill these cancers that may come your way

Long cold wind hits face to remind you're not done
Unloved failure. Serves as lessons learned
Faith regained from plagues
What will I find in me
I found in the falls.
The falls of the unaligned

I ran with the dead and chased my own shadow
Built walls of belief
I saw the dead rise
Reflection dying with me
Reflection dies
36Crazyfists

2010-11-04T00:09:00.000-07:00

Don't give a shit about it
Curl up, I start to doubt this
Something has died in me today
Smell the decay

I need some air around me
Claw walls until my nails bleed
Don't seal my coffin shut today

Coffin nails
So hard to pull
I cannot break free

From the ties that hold you down
From the grips of loneliness
There's something missing in my life
That I'm running after

Never meant to be held down
All I need is home right now
'Cause there's something missing in my life
That I'm running after

Self doubt breaks down my resolve
It cripples part of my soul
And masterfully I'll hide my pain
Smell the decay

Dead eyes and hollow smiles
Pitch black, my vision is gone
And masterfully I'll hide my pain

Coffin nails
So hard to pull
I cannot break free

These coffin nails are keeping me
From the only thing I know
This monster's holding me
How will I break free

Break free
Atreyu

2010-10-26T00:05:00.000-07:00

I believe in nothing
Not the end and not the start
I believe in nothing
Not the earth and not the stars
I believe in nothing
Not the day and not the dark
I believe in nothing
But the beating of our hearts
I believe in nothing
One hundred suns until we part
I believe in nothing
Not in sin and not in God
I believe in nothing
Not in peace and not in war
I believe in nothing
But the truth in who we are
30 Seconds to Mars

My violent heart

2010-10-05T02:04:00.000-07:00

You and I, we may look the same
But we are very far apart
There's bullet-holes where my compassion used to be
And there is violence in my heart

Into fire you can send us
From the fire we return
You can label us a consequence
Of how much you have to learn

You can try but you'll never understand
This is something you will never understand
Can you hear it now?
Hear it coming now?
Can you hear it now?

On hands and knees
We crawl
You cannot stop us all
you wear our bones
our skin
We will not let you in

You have set something in motion
Much greater than you've ever known
Standing there in all your grand naïveté
About to reap what you have sown

Time will feed upon your weaknesses
And soon you'll lose the will to care
When you return to the place that you call home
We will be there, we will be there

On hands and knees
We crawl
You cannot stop us all
Our blood will stay
We will not go away

On hands and knees
We crawl
You can not stop us all
Our blood, our grace
Will never leave this place

We crawl
NIN

2010-04-07T01:08:00.000-07:00

Oh, take these storms away
Start a brand new story.
I'll make it through each day
Singing death or glory.
Lord won't answer me
I won't let it bring me down.

I know these clouds are gray
That I am living under.
I know I'll be okay
With the rain or thunder.
I hear it calling me
I won't march into the sound.

I just get this feeling
You're holding me down.
And these answers I'm needing
I guess they're being smothered by the sound.
Of all this emotion
And all of this hate.
Still I keep searching for something to put my faith in,
to find my place
so I keep singing.

Oh, take these storms away
Start a brand new story.
I'll make it through each day
Singing death or glory.
Lord won't answer me
I won't let it bring me down.

Hold on, hold on,
We'll move along.

Where we belong.
My heart, my soul.

I don't need a vision
I'd like to embrace.
And not only false promises, hopes and wishes.
To find my place
So I keep singing.

Oh, take these storms away
Start a brand new story.
I'll make it through each day
Singing death or glory.
Lord won't answer me
I won't let it bring me down.

Where we belong
My heart, my soul.
We stand alone.
Lostprophets

2009-10-06T05:31:00.000-07:00

No, its not what we meant to say.
We don’t really love each other.
What happens when the summer’s over?
How long before distance becomes a chore?
I'm approaching with great, great trepidation.
I hope you’ll understand.

Before you speak, think about what your trying to say.
Who else is there to blame for miscommunication?
You're getting caught up in the excitement.
You're making promises you can’t keep.
You need to leave all your options open.

Too much momentum.
This room feels like its going to explode.
Too many angles.
Too many factors to cover.
Waiting for signal.
You're searching for a network.
You have to fight to stay in control of the situation.

Anxiety, anxiety, you give me no mercy.
Grind my teeth smooth and flat in my sleep.
We took some pills to calm us down,
Then we needed help to come back up.
Just trying to stay in control of the situation.

Too much momentum,
This room feels like its going to explode.
Too many angles,
Too many factors to cover.
Waiting for signal.
You're searching for a network.
You have to fight to stay in control of the situation,
and they fall apart so easily.
Against Me!

2009-05-19T05:14:00.000-07:00

Orpheus sat gloomy in his garden shed
Wondering what to do
With a lump of wood, a piece of wire
And a little pot of glue
O Mamma O Mamma

He sawed at the wood with half a heart
And glued it top to bottom
He strung a wire in between
He was feeling something rotten
O Mamma O Mamma

Orpheus looked at his instrument
And he gave the wire a pluck
He heard a sound so beautiful
He gasped and said O my God
O Mamma O Mamma

He rushed inside to tell his wife
He went racing down the halls
Eurydice was still asleep in bed
Like a sack of cannonballs
O Mamma O Mamma

Look what I've made, cried Orpheus
And he plucked a gentle note
Eurydice's eyes popped from their sockets
And her tongue burst through her throat
O Mamma O Mamma

O God, what have I done, he said
As her blood pooled in the sheets
But in his heart he felt a bliss
With which nothing could compete
O Mamma O Mamma

Orpheus went leaping through the fields
Strumming as hard as he did please
Birdies detonated in the sky
Bunnies dashed their brains out on the trees
O Mamma O Mamma

Orpheus strummed till his fingers bled
He hit a G minor 7
He woke up God from a deep, deep sleep
God was a major player in heaven
O Mamma O Mamma

God picked up a giant hammer
And He threw it with an thunderous yell
It smashed down hard on Orpheus' head
And knocked him down a well
O Mamma O Mamma

The well went down very deep
Very deep went down the well
The well went down so very deep
Well, the well went down to hell
O Mamma O Mamma

Poor Orpheus woke up with a start
All amongst the rotting dead
His lyre tucked safe under his arm
His brains all down his head
O Mamma O Mamma

Eurydice appeared brindled in blood
And she said to Orpheus
If you play that fucking thing down here
I'll stick it up your orifice!
O Mamma O Mamma

This lyre lark is for the birds, said Orpheus
It's enough to send you bats
Let's stay down here, Eurydice, dear
And we'll have a bunch of screaming brats
O Mamma O Mamma

Orpheus picked up his lyre for the last time
He was on a real low down bummer
And stared deep into the abyss and said
This one is for Mamma

O Mamma O Mamma
O Mamma O Mamma
Nick Cave

2009-02-11T01:41:00.000-08:00

I'm in heavy, I'm in deep,
I look cool but inside I weep.
I'm older but sure ain't as wise
As I pretend though it's mostly all lies!

I'm a liar, I'm a cheat,
Sore loser can't stand defeat.
I say I'm right but I know I'm wrong,
Just wanna hear my music when you're playing your songs!

I know it doesn't show
But It's time I let you know:
Hopeless case of a kid in denial!

Got my tongue firmly in cheek,
Make up my mind just after I speak.
I should do it but I don't,
I say I will but you just know I won't!
You like The Fabs, I dig The Who,
You eat Tikka, I eat Vindaloo.
I only drink when I wanna forget,
I won't admit it but I do regret.

I know it doesn't show
But it's time I let you know:
Hopeless case of a kid in denial!

I'm in deep, I'm in real heavy,
Can't kick it even though I try.
I feel sick but I don't want you to heal me,
I'm a hopeless case of a kid in denial!

Hey I'm a liar and I'm a cheat,
Real sore loser can't stand defeat.
The only thing that will pass my rejection:
Getting real close to denial perfection.

I know it doesn't show
But It's time I let you know:
Hopeless case of a kid in denial!
The Hellacopters

2009-01-21T02:04:00.000-08:00

Say goodnight young dagger, have the years been kind to you?
Or have they left you vacant with so much left to prove?
It should be none of your concern, but the pain has been lifted away.
Fatally eternally.

Overcome and overthrow.
The blood that swelled your tainted lips now drip to the floor.
So dry your eyes, before you cry another river.
And breath-by-breath I'll rise to keep your flood away from me.

I'll dam your flood away from me.
Only out of spite I must,
I will throw you away.
Always I'll fight off your grip on my existence.

I won't feel sorry for this spit in the eye.
Sending seizures through your frozen veins.

There is no giving into you,
It took a lifetime to forget your name.
I swallowed everything you said,
Exhale the poison the dwells within your soul.

Stand up for myself.
Drown by yourself.
Bleeding Through

2008-12-12T01:00:00.000-08:00

i've got wheels of polished steel
i've got tires that grab the road
i've got seats that selflessly hold my friends
and a trunk that can carry the heaviest of loads

i've got a mind that can steer me to your house
and a heart that can bring you red flowers
my intentions are good and earnest and true
but under my hood is internal combustion

satan is my motor
hear my motor purr

satan is the only one who seems to understand
satan is my motor

i've got brakes
i'm wide awake
i can stop this car at any time
at the very last second i can change directions
turn completely around if i feel so inclined

i've got a mind that can steer me to your house
and a heart that can bring you red flowers
my intentions are good and earnest and true
but under my hood is internal combustion

satan is my motor
hear my motor purr

satan is the only one who seems to understand
cake

2008-10-22T05:52:00.000-07:00

Kick start your heart
Just like an engine, battered and over-used
Are we really ready?
I don't think it's any use
If you think it feels close to you, angel
There's nothing left to lose

Please, believe in what I have to say
The symptoms that you have are, so lost
Your wires are crossed
Are you leaving?

Discarded on the floor
We feel the pain, nestled and over-shores.
Well if you tell your truths to me, so sorry to let it go
If you think it feels close to you, angel
It's only one excuse

Please, believe in what I have to say
The symptoms that you have are, so lost
Your wires are crossed
Are you leaving?
Well just leave
We never analysed the way
You didn't like the look of his eyes, our lovers spy
You have to leave it, we're on our way
FFAF

2008-09-02T04:36:00.000-07:00

Never above, Never below, Always beside
I chose to back off from this open wound,
to sweep this all into flames.
Scream under streetlights
'till the voice takes leave.
Life's beautiful miseries.
Never above, Never below, Always beside But you can't make amends when no one lends a chance to make up a time to love.
I find myself into situations that bloom, and you were right, I should do something.
But maybe I should be the first to know this can't be fixed overnight, But I know, It's getting out of line.
Never above, Never below, Always beside
But you can't make amends when no one lends a chance to make up a time to love.
This is everything that stands between the sky and grave...
This is everything that stands between us, that stands between us, into the darkness take us there and through these years I've shown my wear.
Though I'm hardened still I'm prepared to fight... 36Crazyfists

Could I be any more this way, done starting over.

2008-08-22T01:09:00.000-07:00

So we went after the crash, we step out alone.
An undivided healing that swallows us whole.
The air cuts like glass and you taste like winter.
And how long will you last, forever...
And congratulations you've become what you wanted.
Stepping out of this car with that look in your eyes
and knowing that you've never looked so beautiful.
Telephone lines away, death on the end and I'm screaming.
226 on the door, asking to make out while watching the war.
And nothing's like this exit, pale white skin on memory.
And I've got the proof to frame the way.
As we danced, we bled across the floor.
And that never-ending supply that we wished for.
It took me 14 hours to get this sore
and knowing that you've never looked so beautiful.
25 days and I still can't get this right.
Telephone lines away, felt through a phone line
36Crazyfists

2008-07-10T01:32:00.000-07:00

I hope you're sitting comfortably
I saved you the best seat in the house
Right up in the front row
The stars have been torn down
The moon is locked away
And the land is banked in frozen snow

You are a forte of nature, dear
Your breath curls from your lips
As the trees bend down their branches
And touch you with their fingertips
They're bringing out the dead now
It's easy just to look away
They are bringing out the dead now
It's been a strange, strange day

We could navigate out position by the stars
But they've taken out the stars
The stars have all gone
I'm glad you've come along
We could comprehend our
condition by the moon
But they've ordered the the moon not to shine
Still, I 'm glad you've come along
I was worried out of my mind
Cause, they keep bringing out the dead
It's easy just to look away
They're bringing out the dead, now
And it's been a long, strange day

You can move up a little closer
I will throw a blanket over
We can weigh all the tears in one hand
Against the laughter in the other
We could be hanging around here for centuries
Trying to make sense of this, my dear
While the planets try to get organised
Way above the stratosphere
But they keep bringing out the dead, now
It's easy if we just walk away
They keep bringing out the dead, now
It's been a long, long day

Look away
Look away
Nick Cave

2008-06-10T07:28:00.000-07:00

I want you to remember
A love so full it could send us all ways
I want you to surrender
All my feelings rose today
And i want you to remain
The power of children can amaze
I'll try not to complain
I know that's a pisser baby

The chemicals between us
The walls that lie between us
Lying in this bed
The chemicals displaced
There is no lonelier state
Than lying in this bed

I want you to remember
Everything you said
Every driven word
Like a hammer held to my head

We're of the hollow men
We are the naked ones
We never meant you harm
Never meant you wrong
I'd like to thank
All my lovers lovers lovers lovers lovers lovers

The chemicals between us
The army of achievers
Lying in this bed
The chemicals displaced
There is no lonelier state
Than lying in this bed
The chemicals between us
Bush

2008-05-14T05:40:00.000-07:00

Seek me
Call me
I'll be waiting

This distance
This dissolution
Like linked to memories while falling
Sleep brings relief
In the hope of a new day
Waking the misery of being without you

Surrender, I give in
Another moment is another eternity

Seek me
For comfort
Call me
For solace
I'll be waiting
For the end of my broken heart

Seek me
Completion
Call me
I'll be waiting
For the end of my broken heart

You know me
You know me all too well
My only desire to bridge our division

In sorrow I speak your name
And my voice mirrors
Mirrors my darkness

Am I breathing
My slate feels like your picture
That has been a memory

For comfort
For solace
For the end of my broken heart
Killswitch Engage

2008-03-19T05:31:00.000-07:00

Small, simple, safe price

Rise the wake and carry me with all of my regrets
This is not a small cut that scabs, and dries, and flakes, and heals
And I am not afraid to die
I'm not afraid to bleed, and fuck, and fight.
I want the pain of payment
What's left, but a section of pigmy size cuts
Much like a slew of a thousand unwanted fucks
Would you be my little cut?
Would you be my thousand fucks?
And make mark leaving space for the guilt to be liquid
To fill, and spill over, and under my thoughts
My sad, sorry, selfish cry out to the cutter
I'm cutting trying to picture your black broken heart
Love is not like anything
Especially a fucking knife

Look at me, you can tell
By the way I move and do my hair
Do you think that it's me or it's not me?
I don't even care
I'm alive
I don't smell
I'm the cleanest I have ever been.
I feel big, I feel tall, I feel dry

Just look at me, look at me now
I'm a fake

Do I drink? Do I date?
I've got perfect placement all my ink
Satisfied, in your eyes
I'm the biggest fan I've got right now
I made sure, that I look how I wanted to look
The people around me, the people surround me
I feel big, I feel tall, I feel dry

My stomach hurts now, and all tied off in lace
I pray, I beg for anything, to hit me in the face
and this sickness isn't me, I pray to fall from grace
The last thing I see is feeling
And I'm telling you I'm a fake
The Used

demons

2008-02-19T04:57:00.000-08:00

Oh, you and me, we're the same
Asking for more than the numbing existence
Offered us all
What did they say? What did they do?
To make you crawl back in
Despite everything that you've been through
You're still right where I left you
We can lift up our hands to the sky
Find all of those strings that they're pulling and keep from falling back
Into our old rhythmic poses
Turning us into machines

And one of these days we'll no longer betray ourselves
in any way, we won't all look the same way down
And one of these days we'll no longer betray ourselves
in any way, and we'll all take the same way out

And all these illusions dropped on a sea of believers
Crowding around as they hunt me down
And throw me out
While all the rest of the others
Bang their heads in the dredges

And one of these days we'll no longer betray ourselves
in any way, we won't all look the same way down
And one of these days we'll no longer betray ourselves
in any way, and we'll all take the same way out

So don't give up on me
We can be still pretend
This is all just a game
That'll work itself out in the end
Darkest Hour

Survive

2007-11-27T00:56:00.000-08:00

Somewhere between happy, a total fucking wreck
Feet sometimes on solid ground, sometimes at the edge
Spend your waking moments, simply counting time
Give up on your hopes and dreams, give up on your…

Life for you, has been less than kind
So take a number, stand in line
We’ve all been sorry, we’ve all been hurt
But how we survive, is what makes us who we are

An obvious disinterest, we barely managed smiles
I’ll take my little Greenland, a status quo exile
I shoot my obligations, I miss all those headlines
I started quitting early, you’re fucking up my life

All smiles and sunshine, a perfect world on a perfect day
Everything always works out, I have never felt so fucking great
All smiles and sunshine, a perfect world on a perfect day
Everything always works out, I have never felt so great

Life isn’t like this
Life isn’t like this
Life isn’t like this

Are we fudging on an answer, fucking up my…

Life for you, has been less than kind
So take a number, stand in line
We’ve all been sorry, we’ve all been hurt
But how we survive, is what makes us who we are

Who we are
It’s what makes us who we are
Rise Against

thank you

2007-10-11T00:45:00.000-07:00

it takes time to digest but i can see the picture now: the sandcastle i built myself in your washing tide... funny, considering that, i should be the one running for the hills, not you... meanwhile I am still throwing the last of my pretty gifts into your black hole, they dilute so quickly... it's hard to listen when you are waiting for the right answers, map books don't help in the 4th dimension, especially when the person sitting opposite of you keeps on morphing like an LSD-induced cubist nightmare... could it be? has the spiral come full-circle again? is it time yet? nevertheless, either way, i would like to thank you. Thank you for killing that last bit of futile idealism. It was becoming a drag anyway, this obsession with the impossible, to outgrow myself. Because you cannot fall any further if you are lying flat on the ground. It's safe and at least the cold concrete reminds me of what my heart has become. you don't need to protect yourself anymore, at least not from me. the road through my chest is a one-way

"you do this to yourself, you do, you and no one else, you do it to yourself, it's true"

Ohne Worte

2007-09-21T00:22:00.000-07:00

2007-09-07T02:35:00.000-07:00

It's not that I care
(truly)
but you're that girl
(with sharp teeth)
who grabs at the wall
and pulls meat down

well here's my new address
6-6-4-Oh I forget

NO!
it's not like I care
(truly)
but you're that girl
(with gold teeth)
who snaps at the walls
and won't calm down

well here's my new address
6-1-5-Oh I forget
there's all your evidence
now take it home
and run with it

now write it down
now did you get it?
get it
so write it down

well heres my new address
6-6-5-Oh I confess
there's all your evidence
now take it home
and fuck with it

now write it down
now did you get it?
get it
so write it down
Deftones

2007-08-28T02:46:00.000-07:00

From childhood`s hour I have not been
As others were - I have not seen
As others saw - I could not bring
My passions from a common spring.
From the same source I have not taken
My sorrow; I could not awaken
My heart to joy at the same tone;
And all I lov`d, I lov`d alone.
Then - in my childhood - in the dawn
Of a most stormy life - was drawn
From ev`ry depth of good and ill
The mystery which binds me still:
From the torrent, or the fountain,
From the red cliff of the mountain,
From the sun that `round me roll`d
In it`s autumn tint of gold -
From the lightning in the sky
As it pass`d me flying by -
From the thunder and the storm,
And the cloud that took the form
(When the rest of Heavens was blue)
Of a demon in my view.
Edgar Allen Poe

2007-08-13T02:08:00.001-07:00

2007-08-03T04:50:00.000-07:00

HEY GIRL
YOU'LL LAND IT
YOU'VE GOT SUPPLIES
IF THEY DEMAND IT
YOU'VE GOT THE LOOKS
AND THE GLAMOUR
CUT BY THE CHISEL
AND BEAT BY THE HAMMER

THEY'RE NAIVE
SO THEY'LL BELIEVE IT
THEY WILL ACT LIKE DOGS
WHEN THEY RECEIVE IT

THROUGH THE DARKNESS
AND THE HAZE
A STRAIGHT AND NARROW
FALL FROM GRACE

THEY NEED - THEY YEARN
THEY LUST WITH CHEEKS UNTURNED
HANDS SHAKE AND HEADS WILL NOD
THEY GET BY BY THE GRACE OF GOD

HEY BOY
YOU UNDERSTAND
SAY YOUR PRAYERS
OR YOU'LL BE DAMNED

HE'S A WATCHER
AND A VOYER
BYSTANDER
AND DESTROYER

THEY NEED - THEY YEARN
THEY LUST WITH CHEEKS UNTURNED
HANDS SHAKE AND HEADS WILL NOD
THEY GET BY BY THE GRACE OF GOD
The Hellacopters

2007-07-27T01:40:00.000-07:00

I am so all-american, I'll sell you suicide
I am totalitarian, I've got abortions in my eyes
I hate the hater, I'd rape the raper
I am the animal who will not be himself
fuck it

Hey victim, should I black your eyes again?
Hey victim,
You were the one who put the stick in my hand
I am the ism, my hate's a prism
let's jut kill everyone and let your god sort them out
fuck it

Everybody's someone else's nigger
I know you are so am I
I wasn't born with enough middle fingers
I don't need to choose a side
I better not say this
better not tell
I hate the hater, I'd rape the raper
I am the idiot who will not be himself
fuck it
Marilyn Manson

2007-07-25T00:49:00.000-07:00

Seaweeds like emerald veins
she sleeps beneath the breaking weight
A silent dying ocean's slow defeat
The floods will rise
and take us all

An end to all this quarrel
A final grace to rid her grief
Oh, Mother show no mercy for me

Wash the stains away
Come unto me again
Open yourself beneath us all
swallow
Purge the soil
Burn the surface
Erase the past again

Oh, she will sleep
like a breathing fire's kiss upon you
Oh, my darling dear, walk carefully
Perhaps she'll still be there?
Wake up!
The rivers to rise again
The Fallout - The Haunted

2007-06-26T03:58:00.000-07:00

You dance like liquid fire
Like crystal methedrine
You make the stars come closer
The most beautiful girl I've seen

You're everything I want
Only you can set me free
You're an angel in the snow
You're a shot in the arm for me

I will let your LEDs shine
As long as you are mine

You move and whisper softly
You make me safe and sound
You're a tranquilizer
You make the world go round

You are here beside me
You make me feel fine
I'll go through any day
As long as you are mine

I will let your LEDs shine
As long as you are mine
Tiamat

u do this 2 urself u do

2007-06-13T03:22:00.000-07:00

when embracing the chaos beware the pieces jumping out of place. when a butterfly flaps its wings, somewhere a hurricane will be born. und lügen haben kurze beine. the green grocer of karma weighs it out, and we succumb to the whim of the tides. no point in denying what we have thrown into the maelstrom: it has been done, and it was deliberate. carry on, carry on... but even though you are the protagonist in your self-made destiny, the supporting cast might not throw their weight behind your twist to the plot ... the last thing we want is a serenade in d-minor ... and we all defend what we believe is our right to our desires ... reason rears its ugly head...

2007-05-29T05:51:00.000-07:00

It's a waste of kindess
And hard-earned cash
A trap for those in possession of doubt
Lacking choices

Through all these misgivings
An arrogant smile
You're the perfect victim

Forgive my lack of empathy
Oh I just love watching you bleed
The things you do for gold and green
You're so amusing

I saw what you did and how much it hurt you
Some things never heal
They'll approve for as long as you fall
On spit-covered concrete and gold plate stars

The greed is appaling
Your soul is a ghost
Now your flesh is for sale

Forgive my lack of empathy
Oh I just love watching you bleed
The things you do for gold and green
You're pulling teeth for pleasure

Well if this is the road whe choose
If this is the path preferred
If this is where we're headed now
Welcome to hell

So fuck your mask
Fuck your bland conceit
Fuck your precious croonies too
Confess
Stooge
The Haunted - The Prosecution

2007-05-22T00:57:00.000-07:00

i thought about fire in the sky
i thought about fire
i thought about love burning in your eye
i thought about fire

it hurts that drops of fire would fall so precise
and how everything else would lose its meaning
what a beautiful, what a painful surprise
there is no peace outside if there is nothing within
it hurts, but like coming home
once dried up, i guess this is what you get
when a heart expands

i thought about fire in the sky
i thought about fire
i thought about love burning in your eye
i thought about fire

love is destructive for the ego
and your voice is the only thing
that speaks rebelliously in this world of claiming your own
there is no peace outside if theres nothing within
love is addicitive for the spirit
and your voice whispers with a roar
that fire rises up, refills
place at the right king on the throne

i thought about a burning fire
i thought about your love
Blindside

2007-05-08T00:28:00.000-07:00

One brief recollection of all the
People in my life that have
Come and gone
One brief fleeting moment of
People I've loved and people that
I have wronged
Long lost are loved ones gone
But this bird cannot seem to
Mend it's broken wings so the
Lust for life dissipated and
A new greed rises for the
Needful things.

Don't wanna think about it,
I indulge myself
Distraction eases pain, bury my
Emotions to protect myself.
Till I can't feel a fucking thing
I've dared to dream I've tried to live
But I've played it safe instead
Just another slave to my vices now
Bring out your dead

Voices wither and crack, then die
Ringin' in my ear would sing me
Soft asleep
Death silence now is all I hear
Has inspiration finally eluded me

My addiction, my illness,
my only Trusted friend
My addiction my illness
my only Childhood fiend.
Your twisted warm embrace
Engulfing all I tried to be
My body's breaking under
Arms that will not set me free

Locked in this cage that I've
Built myself
Constructed out of twisted cold
Reminders of a Life once lost
But I've found my way again.
Here among the wreckage and the vampires
I'll play it safe again, just a slave to my vices now.
My addiction my illness my only
Childhood fiend.
My illness.

Strung Out - Bring Out Your Dead

heavy on the download

2007-05-03T00:35:00.000-07:00

oh yeah, I play the bass/the bass plays me/the four-stringed, thick-bellied electrified monster, you know, the one that eats all other noises alive
and I've gone walking down these four strings most every hour of every day, of every year and every busted heartbeat, just trying to get along to where the last riff kisses the dark/the subsonic groove, we call it
dub culture/midnight's vibration/something to reach for
some throat, some bottom, some neck and some deep clutch of riverpulse/gets you hot just strapping yourself into the thing/and the more you play, the hotter it gets, the slicker the slide/and all for nothing much because none of the songs you discover, ever come anywhere near to what you hear in your dreams
and I guess all that follows is about me taking a chance on the journey of the bass/and finally getting to reach the end of it/the end of the last tune, and what I find down there, in the grooves of the soul/and how come the music is always that one step beyond all the love you play it with/and how the bass ain't got four strings at all
just when you think you're getting the grip of it
how it's got these other strings, invisible like/below the low, and deepcore/you gotta dive down underload to get a finger on them/and watch yourself doing it, watch yourself
those strings can pull you under, believe me
ah shit/believe me please

jeff noon - needle in the groove

2007-04-24T04:42:00.000-07:00

I dragged this lake looking for corpses
Dusted for prints, pried up the floorboards
Pieces of planes and black box recorders
Don't lie, don't lie
And I've been preoccupied with these sick, sick senses
That sense DNA on barbed wire fences
Maybe someday I'll find me a suspect
That has no alibi

And New Year's Eve was as boring as heaven
I watched flies fuck on Channel 11
There was no one to kiss, there was nothing to drink
Except some old rotten milk someone left in the sink
And there's no ring, there's no ring on the phone anymore
There's no reason to call, I passed out on the floor
Smoked myself stupid and drank my insides raisin dry

But at the right place at the right time
I'll be dead wrong and you'll be just fine
I won't have to quit doing fucked up shit
For anyone but me
At the right place at the right time
It'll be worth it to stand in line
You won't have to stop
Saying "I love cops" for anyone but me
Your private eye
Alkaline Trio

2007-04-02T02:53:00.000-07:00

Still I'm spreading my disease
To work it out this time
Hell no, I won't retreat
Two times won't make it happen
Three times won't make it go
Overcome, make it run
I insist you make it flow

Now I'm chasing what I've learned
You won't be blind this time
Getting back what they have burned
Two times won't make it happen
Three times won't make it go
Overload, still it grows
I resist and make it flow

Trusting the ways of my vulnerable heart
A million times before I get things right.
So fragile it hurts when I just fall apart.
Right, now!

Still I won't get what I deserve
Your search for dreams may falter
Paying back won't make it turn
Four times won't make it happen
Five times won't make it go
Overrule, from a tool
that brings me everlasting pain

Those thoughts are ruling my valuable time
In search for shelter I draw the line
Won't you give me another break
to examine my growing and countless mistakes
Soilwork "Overload"

2007-03-19T00:17:00.000-07:00

What am I supposed to do now?

Reveal to me this ugly thing
I must've meddled by your head
It's getting out of hand again
Nobody sees it, but I can

You thought of everything, I bet
But did you think that I might die?
I haven't really smiled, and I don't know how long you know
Something's going to give again, something's going to give again

I try to fight, but did you listen?
Even though you're gone, I'm never finished
I can never be your God
And I don't even think I want the job, anymore.

Say something, anything to me.
I did believe, but I have doubts
So many reasons to hold on
Conflicting interest is not it

I guess I'm better off in the end
Coz you were always there to blame
I havent' felt so bad, and I don't know how long you know
I can't get away again, I can't get away again..

I try to fight, but did you listen?
Even though you're gone, I'm never finished
I can never be your God
And I don't even think I want the job, anymore.

What am I supposed to now?
How am I supposed to live now?

All I ever did was try, but the story ends
So I guess I'm gonna have to die

Where am I supposed to go now?

Go ahead, and go away
Go away.

Stone Sour "Your god"

Kreuzberg

2007-03-06T23:57:00.000-08:00

There is a wall that runs right through me
Just like this city I will never be joined
What is this love? Why can I never hold it?
Did it really run out? In those strangers' bedrooms

I have decided at 25
That something must change

Saturday night, in East Berlin
We took the U-Bahn to the East Side Gallery
I was sure that I'd found love with this one lying with me
Crying again in the Hauptbahnhof

I have decided at 25
That something must change

After sex the bitter taste
Been fooled again, the search continues
Concerned mothers of the west,
Teach your sons, how to truly love.

Lyrics by Bloc Party, photo by marquis ©

2007-02-19T00:10:00.000-08:00

Pick me up


Been bleeding too long

Right here, right now

I'll stop it somehow


I will make it go away

Can't be here no more

Seems this is the only way

I will soon be gone
These feelings will be gone


Now I see the times they change

Leaving us, it seems so strange

I am hoping I can find

Where to leave my hurt behind
All the shit I seem to take
All alone I seem to break
I have lived the best I can
Does this make me not a man?


Shut me off

I'm ready

Heart stops

I stand alone

Can't be on my own


Am I going to leave this place?

What is it I'm running from?

Is there nothing more to come?


Is it always black in space?

Am I going to take its place?

Am I going to leave this race?


I guess God's up in this place?

What is it that I've become?

Is there something more to come?

(Korn - Alone I Break)

full circle... AGAIN!!!

2007-02-12T01:30:00.000-08:00

CAUTION: idealism is suicide.

*guess i watched "amélie" once 2 often ;)*

FACT: the world cannot be fixed, all thats left 2 do is carry on and keep movin... happiness without sacrifices: it's just not gonna fuckin' happen.. i guess somewhere along the line i started feeling guilty about "leaving corpses left and right" of my path through life. REALISATION: u cannot please all the people all the time... and u need 2 make n protect ur OWN.

it doesnt make us bad people

2007-02-02T01:04:00.000-08:00

Es gibt kein Weg zurück.
Weißt du noch, wie's war
Kinderzeit... wunderbar...
Die Welt ist bunt und schön.
Bis du irgendwann begreifst,
Dass nicht jeder Abschied heißt,
Es gibt auch ein Wiedersehen.

Immer vorwärts, Schritt um Schritt ...
Es geht kein Weg zurück!
Und Was jetzt ist, wird nie mehr ungeschehen.
Die Zeit läuft uns davon, was getan ist, ist getan.
Was jetzt ist, wird nie mehr so geschehen.

Ein Wort zuviel im Zorn gesagt,
Ein Schritt zu weit nach vorn gewagt,
Schon ist es vorbei.
Was auch immer jetzt getan,
Was ich gesagt hab´ ist gesagt,
Und was wie ewig schien ist schon Vergangenheit.
Immer vorwärts, Schritt um Schritt...
Es geht kein Weg zurück!
Und was jetzt ist wird nie mehr ungescheh´n.
Die Zeit läuft uns davon, was getan ist ist getan.
Was jetzt ist, wird nie mehr so gescheh´n!

Ach, und könnt' ich doch nur ein einz'ges Mal
die Uhren rückwärts drehen,
Denn wieviel von dem, was ich heute weiß,
hätt' ich lieber nie gesehen.

Es gibt kein Weg zurück.

Dein Leben dreht sich nur im Kreis,
So voll von weggeworfener Zeit
Deine Träume schiebst Du endlos vor Dir her.
Du willst noch leben irgendwann,
Doch wenn nicht heute, wann denn dann...?
Denn irgendwann ist auch ein Traum zu lange her.
Lyrics by Wolfsheim, Art by Locke

2007-01-23T02:19:00.000-08:00

Can you explain to me how you're so evil,
how it’s too late for me now
there’s a hole in the earth
I’m out

Can you explain to me now
If you're still able,
well, it's time, i think you know the truth
there’s a hole in the earth, I’m out

I hate all of my friends
they all lack taste sometimes
there’s a hole in the earth, I’m out
there’s a hole in the earth, please take a bow (this is the end)

this is the end
somewhere

there’s a hole in the earth
Deftones

Can you add colour inside these lines?

2007-01-11T04:45:00.000-08:00

Rushing through 30,
getting older every day
My soul drawing pictures of innocent times.
Can you add colour inside these lines?

I want you to lead me
Take me somewhere
Don’t want to live in a dream one more day

Sure it would change my perspective,
I'm certain I would change today.
I'm certain it would change our ways,
would things fall into place?

I want you to lead me
Take me somewhere
Don’t want to live in a dream one more day
In Flames - Come Clarity

the quiet place

2007-01-07T23:48:00.000-08:00

Spinning further deeper
I know you're out to try me
I'm not in this to be a slave
I push the dirt
Make me feel
Locate what swallows life
Night bird you build my world

And then I close my eyes...

Judge me now
Used to be afraid to let it show, bow down
good king in my own mind
Everything is in place
So much brighter from today

Drown the monster
Make all bad dreams go away
Whatever it takes to keep your hands free
Open scars
The quiet place
All the bridges fall to the ground
and you say you sacrificed

And then I close my eyes...
In Flames - The Quiet Place

my famous sexy :)

2007-01-03T23:00:00.000-08:00

my beautiful fiancé!

http://www.tlvstudio.com/gallery_51549.html

I never knew a love like this
Gotta be somethin for me to write this
Queen, I ain't seen you in a minute
Wrote this letter, and finally decide to send it
Signed sealed delivered for us to grow together
Love has no limit, let's spend it slow forever
I know your heart is weathered by what studs did to you
I ain't gon' assault em cause I probably did it too
Because of you, feelings I handle with care
Some niggaz recognize the light but they can't handle the glare
You know I ain't the type to walk around with matchin shirts
If relationship is effort I will match your work
I wanna be the one to make you happiest, it hurts you the most
(...)

There are times.. when you'll need someone..
I will be by your side..
There is a light, that shines,
special for you, and me..

It's important, we communicate
and tune the fate of this union, to the right pitch
I never call you my bitch or even my boo
There's so much in a name and so much more in you
Few understand the union of woman and man
And sex and a tingle is where they assume that it land
But that's fly by night for you and the sky I write
For in these cold Chi night's moon, you my light
If heaven had a height, you would be that tall
Ghetto to coffee shop, through you I see that all
Let's stick to understandin and we won't fall
For better or worse times, I hope to me you call
So I pray everyday more than anything
friends will stay as we begin to lay
this foundation for a family - love ain't simple
Why can't it be anything worth having you work at annually
Granted we known each other for some time
It don't take a whole day to recognize sunshine

(...)
At times when I'm lost I try to find you
You know to give me space when it's time to
My heart's dictionary defines you, it's love and happiness
Truthfully it's hard tryin to practice abstinence
The time we committed love it was real good
Had to be for me to arrive and it still feel good
I know the sex ain't gon' keep you, but as my equal
it's how I must treat you
As my reflection in light I'ma lead you
And whatever's right, I'ma feed you
(from Common - The Light)

my name is...

2007-01-03T04:56:00.000-08:00

and here it is, the revolution, the summit, our exodus. our emergency exit from indifference, the purpose, the cog, the spoke, our contribution. lo, and behold, the beacon, the morning star, our shining light. complacently resigning to mediocrity, after all, I wouldn't want to blow my cover...

ichfuckingCANnichmehr

2006-11-20T02:34:00.000-08:00

2006-11-14T00:23:00.000-08:00

it feels like the words are oozing out, i remember trying to control them, every third wave that comes crashing on my back after my lips rejoin and regret tries to sneak in through the back door. i'm not interested, what else is there left to do but to move on. i have surrendered to the current – post-puberty's lesson: go with the flow... and after that i learned who i am. so call it what u will: barbed wire, the third wave, life is as relentless as nature itself and our microcosms are all we have, why else would we constantly want to be a part of something bigger? the universal complex, but as much as i love being a part of it all i feel estranged and removed from the worries... indifferent, because it always hovers above me... the third wave... so here i am: i'm ready! take me! this is me with open arms, screaming into the storm, streaks of water whipping my face. my lungs, my heart, my brain, my body... i cast myself into the perpetual chaos, on my neverending search for order. the pain is real... and it's fine. not like we have a choice...

our sick story thus far

2006-10-27T07:05:00.000-07:00

when you kiss me, do you still taste her
are you thinking of, are you thinking of me
with your lips pressed tightly up against his skin
does your body still scream my name?
does your body still scream my name?

- atreyu

cynicism is a virtue... and fun for the whole family

2006-10-03T04:21:00.000-07:00

famous last words: who am i? what do i want? do i have regrets? do i love myself? do i love my life?... game over... insert coins... continue 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1 game over ...get over yourself ... nothing to say from the cradle to the grave ... i'll die with my tongue in cheek ... and a complacent smile on my face... the inevitable cycle... but say what u want, it scares us all

2006-08-02T06:51:00.000-07:00

It's in the blood.
I met my love before I was born.
She wanted love,
I taste of blood.
She bit my lip, and drank my war,
From years before.
(A.F.I - Love like Winter)

where do i stab myself in the ears

2006-07-27T01:17:00.000-07:00

I guess I could have sent a letter from the road,
with words that always meant more than updates on the phone.
The signal's fading fast and the ink is running out.
The words look good in pen, but sound better from my mouth.

Please hold me tightly, I don't care if I can breathe tonight.
Forget these lungs, their jealousy
I'm burning out, but I can't leave this all behind

Behind your back, talking like knives
And I can hardly breathe.
Sharpen your tongue the rest of your life,
like I cannot believe anything that you say.

So you're the fire and I'm the water.
I am the balance and you are the color.
I won't forget you when we're not together.
This is the ending, here's my surrender.

Please hold me tightly, I don't care if I can breathe tonight.
Forget these lungs, their jealousy
I'm burning out, but I can't leave this all behind
hawthorne heights

awesome :)

2006-07-13T08:19:00.000-07:00

this thing's done the rounds but it's worth mentioning, check it out: www.sp-studio.de

life isn't fair

2006-07-04T01:09:00.000-07:00

city pt.2

2006-06-19T23:41:00.000-07:00

the city is alive, i feel it burning inside

2006-06-13T04:06:00.000-07:00

2006-06-12T03:32:00.000-07:00

2006-06-06T03:25:00.000-07:00

speed of light/keep out

2006-05-17T00:50:00.000-07:00

Come and I'll take you under
This beautiful bruise's colors
Everything fades in time it's true
Wish that I had another
Stab at the undercover
Was it a change in mind for you

It's impossible
I can't let it out
You'll never know
Am I selling you out
Sit and watch
Your every mood

Your eyes still remind me of
Angels that hover above
Eyes that can change from blind to blue
Now that I've found my reward
I'd throw it away long before
I'd share a piece of mine with you       
(Foo Fighters - Hey, Johnny Park!)

2006-04-04T02:58:00.000-07:00

she is the soundtrack to my life, my theme song on repeat,
her voice is my melody, her heart the accompanying beat
silence may be golden, but her laughter sounds so sweet
i can hear it inside my head, every night when i go to sleep.

2006-03-14T03:47:00.000-08:00

though the peril of never being able to predict fail-safely what lies ahead looms sempiternally, we can read the signs, alongside, above and below, that show us the tide to come...

echoes in the hallways of always

2006-01-23T04:22:00.000-08:00

...and still moving in circles

patience is a virtue of which the value escapes me... i'm all high-speed, no time to stop and smell the flowers... emotions and experiences pass 2 quickly 2 b consciously absorbed, instead beneath it all a constant pondering adds a humming soundtrack 2 life... like the incessant buzz of city life... silence is golden, but once we loose ourselves in our internal autobiography, stagnation sets in, like a pause button, and we fail 2 see beyond the current frame... an impressionistic still-life, a motion-blur, like wall street on an autumn moring... and that old bastard melancholy creeps up, like a choking shadow casting itself across the scene... we pretend its dark and the illusion of our eye-sight failing becomes an excuse... always... never... there is no such thing

new years resolution ;)

2006-01-05T04:32:00.000-08:00

complacently unsatisfied ;)

2005-11-22T03:09:00.000-08:00

a knotted soul that still knows where 2 go, but leaves every tale untold
a mended spirit, but nowhere close to near it, forever searching, unsatisfied
complacent, but adjacent to cynicism, latent... yet still too direct to handle
not interested in a purpose, nor to fulfill a goal... but to fill this cold hole
that is left in place of the quest for restlessness

irreversible

2005-11-01T05:10:00.000-08:00

how sick are we ...
to be in love with tragedy

make be[LIE]ve

2005-10-27T05:20:00.000-07:00

fear is a muthafucka... and doubt's sister... if we had a 2nd chance at our choices, of course we'd do it differently, in retrospect, being a wise-ass is easy
still i feel that sad laugh in my throat when i think: no regrets... and yes, pain is the only cure

bla - dyslexic and tongue-tied

2005-10-25T01:39:00.000-07:00

always wandering full-circle... the spiral continues, turning around its own axis at ramdom, leaving us guessing the difference between up and down... everything for a reason, choice shaped by past patterns, consequence bursting in like an expected visitor who is running late... again :) what disguise have u brought today? *i think i'll wear my shit-eating grin again* ;) the perpetual vacuum that precedes and follows our existence is in our heads... consciousness has made subjectivity unavoidable... this is a promise to myself to not give a fuck... each step in the illusion of spontaineity... following your heart is over-rated... what choice do we have? "each action is a reaction" ... and each reaction a counter-reaction...and on and on, lets rationalise ourselves to death ... i choose life ... death follows anyway... and who knows if the light really DOES go out when u close the fridge? after all, thats what we paid for

1990-01-10T01:01:00.000-08:00

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